Would that I could rise
from the layered fray
strong and sure
bloom and sway
marking the way with grace and joy
a petaled peace
in life’s demise.
How I love making these little stitched patches. I enjoy the process of creating them – the assembling and arranging of bits of cloth, the choosing of thread colors, the point of beginning to stitch and then following the needle as it goes along the surface, diving down into the layers and coming up ringing with it a line, recording where I’ve been.
Every patch is a little journey of grace needling ever more deeply into a multi-layered mystery, marking the path as I go.
Each fragment is like a topographical map. I have never been very good at maps, or rather at understanding how to follow them. It is with some surprise then, that I can find my way with a map of fabric and thread. The terrain shifts and alters under my fingers, buckles to the point of needle and the pull of thread.
In this map-making work I can hear my life, understand it’s history, and settle into now with soothing and steadiness for what lies ahead.
I’m reminded that descent always precedes rising. With each stroke of the needle I must plunge it into the fray and then watch for it to appear again on the surface. Such is the way of all things…a going down before going up. Winter to spring, seed to sprout, death to life.
I resist this with everything in me. I want it to always be spring and never pass through winter, for flowers to never die in order for seeds to replenish their blooming, and certainly not for loved ones to leave this world. Yet I know in the end we will rise. Death must precede this. Then life everlasting.
For now we continue to stitch, daily working into the fabric of our lives this death to resurrection process in innumerable tiny ways. We are called to die…to plunge into the abyss of dying to our agenda, to our demands, to our rights, so that love would blossom, forgiveness flourish, laughter shine and sparkle with depth and authenticity.
The stitches are reminding me. My needle is poised for the descent. I know that beauty is being wrought.